Sorry man! It happens to us all. My first shot at a turkey was a miss! I so wanted that bird too! he was a Eastern with several solid white tail feathers. Absolutely beautiful bird. The father-in-law killed him the very next day and when he was cleaning him found 7 shot in the head/neck area. I guess they just didn't hit the "sweet spot". Get back at him, you'll jelly that ol'head!