Not able to say much, but I will say this, if you are a believer in Christ, hang on to your faith, if you do not know what to believe talk to a mature and grounded Christian. Admitting one's ignorance in what to believe is not admitting that you are stupid or stubborn, it is a cry for help, that any true believer that is mature enough to help you, can answer through the word of God. Don't be ashamed to admit you need help in your spiritual search.
I am typing this from my bed, as I am down, so it may not be strong, but it is to the point. Remember hrist died on the cross for you as well as everyone else. pappy